Thursday, December 27, 2007

Is It Over?

I love Christmas time. I always have very mixed emotions when it is over. When I was a child, I can remember the sad, very down feeling I would have on December 26. I could hardly believe that it was over. As an adult, I still have that feeling in some way. However, mixed with that sadness is a sense of relief. Probably because I know how fast times goes and that Christmas will be back before I know it.

So now, the dread has set in. The dread of looking at all of these beautiful decorations and knowing that I have to clean them up. I feel a sense of sadness that they have to go. Yet, at the same time, I'm so sick of them I wish I could snap my fingers and have them disappear.

When I was a child, I can remember us begging our mother to leave the decorations out until New Years Day was over. Now, I have been known to start UNdecorating on Christmas night. It is amazing how ones perspective changes over the years.

Christmas was wonderful this year. I don't ever recall having an UNwonderful Christmas. I love to watch the boys reactions as they open up their presents. We went to San Angelo on Christmas Eve to the candlelight service at Johnson Street church of Christ where my uncle preaches. I was in tears as I sat there with all of my cousins, my parents, my aunt and uncle and my precious husband and boys. I love family. It was at that very moment that I missed my sister the most.

My heart was also heavy this year for my precious friend and her family. On Memorial Day, a tragic accident claimed the life of her 13 yr. old nephew. I prayed earnestly for them all day. The void in that large family must be indescribeable. Please pray for blessing and peace to be on this family.

I pray that you all had a wonderful Christmas. I will post pictures soon. (correction: Wade will post pictures... I still don't know how)


Darla said...

I am so glad you guys had a great Christmas. I too feel the very same way about Dec 26th. I still have my Christmas tree up and don't plan on taking it down until Matt makes me. I still want to hold on to Christmas. I can't wait to see you guys in January to have our Christmas.

Cheryl said...

Oh man. I actually wept over this post. The picture of all of you sitting together at church...whew. I'm so thankful you all had that moment. It is exactly those moments that I love when I am home. All of us in church together. Laughing around the table. Watching our kids make memories. I love our family too and miss you all so much.

I also loved the pics of the boys programs and parties. We have, as a family, gone through them alot. You are precious to us. Hugs all around please. :-)

Larissa said...

I'm starting to feel clausterphobic and have been randomly grabing things and putting in one spot to be packed away. I keep staring at my tree and wonder when I'm going to start tackling that. I'm kind of dreading it. It's always so much more fun to put up than take down!